I should be doing homework or sleeping right now, that’s why I’m posting so much. I have a midterm in American Government on Tuesday, and a Physics test on Wednesday. Physics is easier than I expected, and I’m eager to get into cool stuff next semester. Optics and waves and relativity, oh my!

Calculus is a big disappointment again. I went for a different teacher, but he also teaches straight from the book. I’m trying to screw up enough courage to complain about the math department. I’m not going to spend four hours every week having some guy read the book to me. I’ve been reading the Feynman lectures on physics, and I’m very disappointed in myself for not going to a real college. I’ll be able to transfer soon, but what will I have missed? How hard will it be to get on a good research project? How will I maintain my enthusiasm through city college? It’s like high school, except I have to buy my own books. It’s interesting to see people though.

There are guys in my physics class who are going to college solely so they can become CalTrans engineers (the state transit department, I guess). They don’t care about physics, or education in general. They just know that they can make a decent living for a modest amount of work by getting an engineering degree. Fresno State recently changed the requirements for the engineering degree, dropping the modern physics class. Even though it’s important (waves, optics, relativity), these guys aren’t going to bother taking it, because they don’t care. What scares me is that it’s people like that that design our bridges and highways. I wonder if every professional engineering department is like a science class. One guy understands everything, and he just gives everyone else the answers because they don’t want to learn and he wants to go home.